Been too long

Didn't mean to go a month without writing something. I think I was waiting on something super awesome to come up but let's be honest about life: it's moments of excitement buffered by long periods of boredom. No one is super exciting every day but I do get those who want to be the adrenaline junkies and stay in that moment as long as possible.

I can say that's never really been my life, though. If anything, I'm really hoping for a place to call home, physically and spiritually. Lately, I've found a joy in going to jiu-jitsu and making an effort to get back into really good shape. I also want to shake up any stagnancy in my life. I've gotten pictures framed that I've been staring at for months or years so I can hang them up and enjoy them. I'm going to get to that comic book room and put a TV up in there so I can say I did it.

I'm probably not saying this well enough but I just want to do stuff. And I want the stuff to stick. I want stuff to evolve in my life and I want to evolve with it. At the end I just hope I'm a little better for all and I hope I'm helping people get better as well. I just want anything I'm doing to be worth something.

Not trying to sound morbid. This stuff has been on my mind a lot lately. Am I being a good husband? Brother? Friend? Have I stretched myself too far to be good at any of it? Should I draw back from making friends? Is there a shelf life on when you should do that?

No easy answers but I guess the fun of it is figuring out as best as you can what those answers are for you.

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